As I sit here on my couch reading one of my favorite blogs: http://zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/ as he truly inspires and motivates me, as well as my encourages me that if he can lose the weight, my husband and I can lose the weight. He has lost over 200# in 2 years, he still has some to lose, but how amazing is that? He has done it without surgery even. WOW! Anyways as I sit here pondering about things, it struck me, "Who's Fault Is It Anyways?" That I have been stuck in a diet rut for the past year? I was 212# a year ago in December (2008) and today I weighed in at 219.0# (which was a loss from yesterday but still), I have let stress, and drinking too much regular coke get to me. It is MY fault that I haven't been as strong as I know I can be. I lost 70# back in 2003/2004 so I KNOW I can do it! I just have to keep focused and not let stress get to me. It is MY fault that I prefer (or am just that lazy) to sit on the couch and watch TV instead of exercising. It is MY fault that I chose to eat fast food instead of eating a healthier lunch which I do sometimes. I have an exercise partner (my Golden Retriever, Shellie) and I KNOW I can do it, granted there is snow on the sidewalks right now and I don't want to hurt her paws/feet but I can exercise inside using my elliptical, stability ball or any of the 10+ Leslie Sansone WATP DVD's I have. So while my weight, lack of exercise, and lack of drinking proper amounts of water is MY FAULT, NO ONE force feeds me, NO ONE chains me to the couch, NO ONE forces regular coke down my throat (I have apsartame poisoning so can't drink regular diet drinks), It may be MY FAULT, but ONLY I AM THE ONE WHO CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! I am the one who can get off the couch, eat proper foods, exercise, chose water over Coke. If it is to be, it's up to me!